Comments on: #52 - Happy 16th Birthday, Darlin’

By: Rose

Rose — Sun, 04 Feb 2007 18:34:43 +0000

I am now reading your storey for a second time….its amazing how many things you can miss by only reading it once…especially discovering all this and then reading this all in the moment ..I discovered it on computer.I could not read it fast enough…so now im in focus mode in my brain to reread…Allison what hurts my heart is the fact that the program itself was abusive enough…and to think that not only did you have to be in this program…while in this program you had abuse happen to you on top of (just the program itself)

By: Shiny

Shiny — Mon, 10 Jul 2006 13:05:13 +0000

I just discovered this blog and am amazed. Thank you for sharing your story — it’s important that it’s shared with the community at large so parents think twice before opting for a program like this one where they don’t know the half of what’s going on.

I don’t know why this one trivial fact seems to ring in my mind, but I, too, was born on April 21! Two years earlier than you were, in fact. I have my own memories of April 21, 1990 — turning 18 in a country thousands of miles away from home.

I’m still reading everything. Thanks again for sharing…

– S

By: f-i-n

f-i-n — Sun, 20 Nov 2005 16:24:05 +0000

I love the part about wishing for rain on your birthday. I do the same!

By: Genlisae

Genlisae — Mon, 14 Nov 2005 09:22:48 +0000

Thank you.

Kate

By: Lionise

Lionise — Sun, 13 Nov 2005 09:29:49 +0000

Here’s an article about “STRAIGHT, Inc” teen behavior camps…

Ambassador de Sade
Bush rewarded one of his loyalists with the ambassadorship to Italy — despite his past as the founder of an cult-like teen rehab clinic.

There you have it, presidential endorsement of teen torturers.

By: Maqqy

Maqqy — Sun, 13 Nov 2005 05:01:26 +0000

I’ve been reading your stuff for quite awhile now. I’ve never commented, because most of the time I can never think of anything to say. What you’ve gone through is simply undescribable. How you didn’t turn into a homocidal maniac after all this, I’ll never understand. I know I would have. But I finally found something I can relate to with you.

I was born April 16th. And it always used to rain on my birthday too. It hasn’t the past few years, and I find I miss it. God bless you, child. I hope writing this out will help you to put it behind you.

By: Wendy

Wendy — Sun, 13 Nov 2005 04:25:44 +0000

Alli, I’m sorry you had to go through this. But, since you did, I’m glad that you met up with Cody. She sounds really cool.

By: Mike Lyne

Mike Lyne — Fri, 11 Nov 2005 17:41:55 +0000

I understand what you’re saying. I guess it’s a good thing that you still have your journals then. Far better to be able to read what’s written and concentrate on that than to have to rely entirely on your memories of what happened. Your journals must give you something to focus on, you know?

I suppose you’ll have to confront alot of the harder memories more fully when you start putting it down on paper again for your book. I respect your courage.

By: Alli

Alli — Fri, 11 Nov 2005 16:28:57 +0000

You’ve always just been here for the whole thing and even before I started writing this, Nightmare buddy. Thats more than enough to help, sweetneck

By: Nightmare

Nightmare — Fri, 11 Nov 2005 14:03:29 +0000

Allie Girl,

I love reading your stories, I wish there was something I could do to remove the pain and fear.

By: Alli

Alli — Fri, 11 Nov 2005 08:30:21 +0000

Honestly, its like…I know I’m only writing a brief synopsis of what happened here. I’m telling it in small detail because its how I can relive it…one tiny memory at a time, you know? It is difficult lots of the time to avoid really “delving deeply” into the emotional memories. Its a weird place to be, in your own head.

By: Mike Lyne

Mike Lyne — Fri, 11 Nov 2005 06:39:31 +0000

When you’re writing, do you find it hard to stick to what you have written in your journals?

I mean, it seems like you’re really good at just staying with the facts of what happened, and then maybe putting in some details to flesh it out and give us a better picture… but you never really go into what your thoughts were at the time, or even after the fact.

Does it take alot of effort for you to avoid that or does it just happen that way?

By: Alli

Alli — Fri, 11 Nov 2005 06:31:32 +0000

We also thought we heard sasquatch in the forest…scared the living daylights out of us. Good times indeed;)

By: Mike Lyne

Mike Lyne — Fri, 11 Nov 2005 06:29:55 +0000

Heh… Jim Morrison and Camels… now there’s a mix! Cool deal.

By: Alli

Alli — Fri, 11 Nov 2005 06:02:35 +0000

Jeff, this is all taken from my journals…I still have them, I’ve got them all. Not only do I remember the weather, but I can look in my journals and know exactly what I ate that day, how many miles we hiked… Most people who read this know that I get this all from my journals, I talk alot about it in the beginning. Why?

Mike, yeah, we actually spent a long weekend in the snow up in Provo Canyon after we got out. We listened to the Doors and smoked Camels the whole time.

By: Mike Lyne

Mike Lyne — Fri, 11 Nov 2005 03:30:58 +0000

I’m thinking that Cody is cool. Anybody that manages to find it in them to cheer you up in the middle of all that has to be! Shitty deal about your birthday being spent out there though… did you ever get those meals that she promised? That would be good.

By: Jeff

Jeff — Fri, 11 Nov 2005 00:11:34 +0000

How do you remember what the weather was like on specific dates? This was like 10 or 15 years ago, right?

By: Elizabeth

Elizabeth — Thu, 10 Nov 2005 14:39:27 +0000

You write so well….so descriptive. So did you later learn that your family was writing…and perhaps those counselors just not giving it to you? I hope that was the case!! I cannot imagine a mother not attempting to make some kind of contact!

How fortunate that this friend showed up for you, even at that late date in this experience. You are amazing to have survived this!

Elizabeth