Comments on: #20 - Lobster Tails and Pancakes

By: Rose

Rose — Tue, 24 Oct 2006 19:32:32 +0000

Allison …I wish I could have been one of those kids that didnt have so many problems with life .. I wish I could have been able to go to school on my own ..I wish I could have been able to get with the program of life at about the age of 10 or 11 things werent right in my mind and heart..and it only got worse for me..I wish I could have been able to be one of the normal))) people that knew how to automatically do things that they were suppose to accomplish at the time..I wish that food addiction wouldnt have taken me over ..I wish that that drugs and alcohol and sex wouldnt have taken me over..I wish anger and sorrow wouldnt have taken me over ..I wish being placed in other peoples hands wouldnt have taken me over I wish… . I could just have the normal nurishment on my own ..with normal interest in life as a young child ..but I did not and could have not because that s just how it was for me I became angry..I became defeated with my own life as a young child with absolutely nothing that could have relieved me from my own pain at that time in my life..My parents knew that there was something very wrong with me for my own experiance..I feel bad for my folks that they had to take action to try to help me when they had failed in trying to fix me . I feel bad for my brother who had to be subjected to my self illness… .. for me my soul woke up in year 2000…so from year 1987 or 1988 to year 2000 I had nothing but suffering from myself I just didnt know how to be okay with life I couldnt find any where to fit into it. Year 2000 was my emotional bottom of bottoms because my dad was dieing he had a brain bleed in the head right in front of me slipped into a comma and I never knew if I was ever going to have my daddy back the doctors said very slim chance of him making it back to life…One week later I walked into his hospital room ….and I had a spiritual experiance alls I know is God had my attention I no longer had my own pain I had the pain of my daddy leaving me forever …I walked into the hospital room and all of a sudden something came around me in spirit and boom my soul woke up in a spilt second I recieved my answer that I have been looking for and searching for all my life as ayoung girl to a early adult and that was that something greater than human was going to help me and then my life began growing ..seeing… realizing…understanding….healing…and being free from myself for the very first time and His name is God………………. I have been well in my soul now since year 2000 relearning everything I ever have learnt …..

By: lexi

lexi — Wed, 20 Sep 2006 10:10:07 +0000

i cant read anymore of this right now… after reading the part where you told your dad but he didnt believe you, i can relate to that and i cried when i read it too.. mine didnt believe me either when i told him what was happening in military school. you have such a way with words… i feel like im there with you.

By: Tyrell

Tyrell — Tue, 14 Jun 2005 22:44:55 +0000

I’ve been reading this story and so far, this was the most shocking part of it. Your own FATHER…, seriously cursed as a read that part where he gave his custody to THEM… I feel so bad for you, and for the world now….

By: Lucas

Lucas — Tue, 14 Jun 2005 07:51:18 +0000

I have been reading since entry 1. The stuff that goes on here is incredibly hard to stomach. I know it must not mean much, but this whole thing has made me feel so terrible. My prayers and hopes are out to you and all those poor souls who ever had to experience Challenger. I wish you well and a good life.

By: Jonathan

Jonathan — Thu, 02 Jun 2005 22:59:53 +0000

Wow…. I cant belive all this even as i am reading it. I’m so sorry all this happened. I wish i knew what to say, but i really dont. Its so horrible.

By: Tris

Tris — Mon, 16 May 2005 00:32:50 +0000

I am so sorry this happened to you. It’s so horrible that things like this actually go on. This page made me cry… my heart goes out to you.